It’s Finally Lake Day…

We are taking our new boat out on the lake today for the first time…

Yes, it’s warm enough here in the desert lol

I know what you’re thinking…

We aren’t THAT crazy…

Or maybe we are? I dunno…

Anyways…

I’m sitting outside of the boat shop on the curb

waiting for the boat to get summer-ized…

& I can’t help but think about my past years on the lake…

I remember never wanting to go in the water,

Because that meant I would have to be seen in my bathing suit…

And even though it was always just my close family…

I feel sick just thinking about these memories because I was so embarrassed…

Isn’t that sad?

What should be some of my greatest memories growing up…

Make my stomach hurt to think about now because of how sad and disgusted I was with myself…

When I think about the lake

I should remember how freaking awesome it was to be wake boarding with my cousins…

Or how peaceful it was just cruising on the jet skis…

But that’s not what I remember…

I remember keeping my life jacket on all day, even when I wasn’t in the water so no one could see my belly…

I remember telling myself I looked like a whale in my swimsuit…

I remember refraining from swimming with my friends because I didn’t want to be seen in my bathing suit…

And that makes me really really sad…

That that’s how I felt about my body…

I wasn’t proud to be in my skin…

I didn’t love myself…

Heck, I wasn’t enough nice to myself…

And I wish I would have known how much of my life was wasted being mean to myself…

All of the things I missed out on because I didn’t have a healthy relationship with my body…

I just want to tell you

DON’T DO WHAT I DID.

Don’t waste your life and precious memories you could be making because you’re too focused on being negative to yourself…

that you don’t appreciate what’s going on around you…

Learn to love yourself NOW

Exactly where you’re at…

Because if you don’t learn to love who you are now…

You still won’t love yourself 30 lbs from now…

AND THAT’S THE TRUTH!

So walk up to a mirror right now and say

“I am Beautiful”

“I am an Amazing Woman”

“I LOVE MYSELF!”

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…Remember, always be spreading sparkle…